Introduction

I've gained permission from my wife to do this blog as long as it's done anonymously. So no, that's not my real name and you'll never know my real real name.

I suppose the best way to start this out by doing an introduction of sorts and explain what this is what's to come.

First about Her since she's the most important person in my world. My wife is someone who is a naturally dominant person and loves to have her way. She's highly intelligent, which is one of the things that first attracted me to her. She's also a very sexual person, but has lacked confidence in herself and has self esteem issues after a pretty rough first marriage and just a run of bad luck for years. But she truly is the Goddess I treat her as and I've spent ten years of your marriage trying to show her this.

Now me since I'm a partyof the equation. I'm in my mid-30's and I've known I was submissive since I was around 12 or 13 years old. Over the years my submissiveness has grown stronger and stronger as have my fetishes. I'm the type of person who has always been in a place of power or leader of some sort and submissiveness just came easy with me and my personality: loves to make others happy, non-confrontational, puts others needs ahead of my own.

My biggest kinks when it comes to being submissive outside of pleasing my wife first and foremost: tease and denial, orgasm control/chastity, giving forced oral (and rim jobs), spanking, and a extreme foot fetish. These are just the heavy hitters. I'm open to and into much more.

The brief story of us - married for a decade. When we were first married we we're like teenagers. We were all over each other all the time, we went out of our way for one another, It was all sex all the time. Then certain life changing events happened and our sex life slowed down. Over the years it became sporadic. We would hit spans when we could go at it nonstop for days or weeks but then we might hit times where we go a month or two without anything. A lot of this was my fault because I was always of the mindset of that I'm a man, I always want it and never say no. She'll come to me when she wants it so I'm not turned down, and thus I was rarely initiating or making her feel desired even though she was.

Then came the major issue that would cripple our sex life: Internet porn. When I wasn't getting regular sex I turned to porn. It got to the point where I was looking at porn (always femdom of some sort) on a regular basis and was masturbating at least once a day, sometimes two to three times a day so even if the occasion would arise with her I was very little good for her. Though there is no excuse, I will say this much. On days I thought I had a chance or I would actually plan on initiating I'd leave porn alone.

Then it all changed. I felt that while I knew we loved each other to no end, things could be better. I also knew my wife, her personality, and partially understood how she thinks (as much as man can understand the mind of a woman anyway). After years of hiding my fantasies and desires out of fear of how she might look at me or react (a decade is a long time) I finally opened up to her about all of it with the thoughts of not just how it could fix our sex life, but strengthen our marriage.

So as I sat at work one day with both of us flirting back and forth for a full eight hour shift at work I had it in my mind that today was the day. I came home thought about how much better I am at expressing my true feelings and thoughts and much more articulate when I write than when I speak. I sat down behind a keyboard and explained to her my desire to be submissive to her. And I don't just mean the occasional play in the bedroom but on a full time regular basis. I poured my heart out to her and explained to her how this could help us, help our marriage, and how I felt that this was something she would love and enjoy just as much as me, if not more-so. I also made it clear however that if she was doing this just for me and not for herself that it wasn't fair to either of us.

She read it and she loved it. Since then we have been living this lifestyle. Our sex life is better, our marriage is better, even the vanilla things are much better. In the time we've done this my wife has gained confidence both sexually and nonsexually. She has settled into the dominant role like a veteran (and I truly do think she enjoys at least as much as I do, if not more). Me, I couldn't be happier to be submissive.

What this blog will be is my life in submission to my wife. I will discuss the things we do with one another, telling stories sometimes in detail, sometimes in less detail. I'll discuss my feelings and my desires. I'll discuss how this is effecting other parts of our life. I'll give my opinions and thoughts on various parts of this lifestyle. And she's in charge so I'll also write about anything she demands of me.

So sit back and enjoy. I'd love to get any and all feedback you have. Feel free to comment on anything you like.